[~*Vintage^Dream*~]

Sunday, November 06, 2005

haha. life is good, thats all i can say.

ive asked for a lot of things in my life and more often than not, hindi ko siya nakukuha. ok lang naman sakin kasi feel ko kaya hindi ko siya nakukuha kasi hindi ko naman talga siya kailangan. tama ba?

like love. ive been in and out of love since i was eight and only ONCE in my life did i feel a certain kind of love for someone that i thought would go far off as marriage. yup, love was not new to me. And in that sense, i got so used to that kind of feeling that i am conditioned to think that whatever "love" comes my way it would soon pass and that the next one would be better than the former. Ive almost always prayed to God on New Year to give me someone to love and looking back, i think that God hasn't really answered my prayer. Well, its not that im not worth loving its just that God knows me too well. He knows that im not ready for a relationship.

But come to think of it, when was i ready? That time in third year when i met "THE ONE"? How did that end again? almost a year of endless crying sessions? a friendship that ended? Gee, if that is being ready, i dunno what being OC is in a relationship..do you??!

enough blabber. all i can say is that, ive loved with all my heart. Gotten stung too many a time. Picked myself up after each and every fall and do i wish to NOT EVER LOVE AGAIN??? of course not.

i believe that there is someone out there for me. i might have met him already, then again i might not. Whoever he is, he's there. somewhere. Thinking about the exact same thing im thinking right now. Thinking about me too.

Ahh. C'est la vie!!

.|. dreamed.at .|. 8:53:00 PM