Monday, November 22, 2004
Never Again....
Never again would you hear me mention your name nor would you ever see me look your way. I am done with loving you and I guess it’s only now that I realized that I am just a person who, like the others, also gets tired. I have been following you for a long time, making believe in the impossible, putting you in this pedestal where I worship you as my god. I have done no crime to deserve this atrocity and starting today, I will no longer mention your name.
Never again would you hear me laugh at your jokes. It doesn’t matter if they are funny or not, because apparently, I had stopped laughing at everything because I became numb after you… you should be the one laughing at me because for you, I am just a big joke. You don’t deserve a smile, nor a snort, not even a laugh from me because it makes you feel good while I stay on the side, waiting for that one glorious smile that hopefully one day you’ll give me. And so I waited, and waited for that smile, yet you never gave it.
Never again would I think of you while the rain is pouring. At least I wouldn’t feel gloomy in the cold and think of your arms wrapped around me. This chill I feel when the rain is here is better that the chill my heart feels because you are not mine. Now I will be distant, putting a wall between us so that I could no longer pretend you’re there.
Never again would I look at the moon and imagine youre beside me holding my hand. Now, you will never see me long for you.
Never would I say I love you nor would you ever hear the words love and your name in the same sentence. I've gone tired thinking of you when I hear sweet music serenading the air. Now, i just couldn't imagine myself thinking of your touch whenever the wind kisses my cheek. Never again would I make you my inspiration, making you the very reason for the poems I make and the stories I write. Never again…
But how could I say all of these things when the only man behind all these words is you?
Tell me, how can I stand up on my own and proudly say “NEVER AGAIN” without you…
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teach me… You’re good at it aren’t you?.....Never again…
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dreamed.at .|. 6:37:00 PM